The lake shimmered under the gaze of the unsteady eye, looking up to the slit of a shadow approaching the cliff.
Body trembled in the slight breeze as it stepped to the ledge of the overhang. Head hung down so that eyes could stare and see what was below.
Lake shimmered and whispered haunting invitations in the twilight as the wind lightly stroked her.
‘No more dislocation, become part of me’
Body despised lake because she was consistent; always wet, deep and cooling. Eyes blinked and hands assisted by wiping away the tears. Feet curled its toes round the springy grass underneath sending tremors of uncertainty through body, who acquired weight tripling actuality.
Everything around body seemed quiet, peaceful and still, reminiscent of previous visits. Yet head was filled with piercing screams and banging. Further complicated and intensified by the fact that release valves located in mouth and its associates tongue and throat refused to cooperate in expression. Eyes focused on the gentle lapping of the lakes silken gusset and drank in tranquility.
Throughout this time mind had been racing with a whirlpool of questions swirling into its depths.
‘Why am I here? Why have I lead the physical here? Is it all my fault?’
Body pulled itself up to its full height and felt the stretch of the calf and the arch of the back. It pulled tension from foot to crown. As the tension rose, mind pulled in sync with the eye and realised the beauty of dusk spreading out before it, the orange glow of sunset on the horizon over the other side of the lake. Nerves moved in and gate-crashed on mind and eye. acknowledging the gentle breeze and subtle smells from the orchard nearby. The doors of mind opened out on sensory experience and bodys numbness was lifted. All around nature displayed a wealth of creativity and mind was inspired.
Arms slowly rose above head in a nervous gesture of preparation and body sured itself up below. With a familiar precision hands guided body from the ledge in one fluid motion to slice through lakes shimmering surface just as sun disappeared over the horizon.
As water covered body, mind was invigorated with an acceptance of ability and triumph. Skin tingled all over with the pinprick of coolness. The resurface was an explosion of certainty and joy.
As Mina swam back to the bank of the lake, she acknowledged the fears and the clarity she held inside and as she climbed out she felt clearer about her options.
Padding back through the glen to her cottage she whispered her mantra;
‘I experience in my own way’